I went into this book thinking it was going to be the same story as Sky's but from a different POV. IT'S NOT. It's much more than that. It was almost like reading a new book, only not. Because we do get some rehashing of scenes that we experienced in Hopeless, but with Holder's inner dialogue it made it a new experience.
This book invoked so many emotions I would probably forget a few trying to list them off. It was one of the most intense emotional roller coasters I've been on.
Holder's story starts a year before Hope aka Sky comes back into his life. Right before the turning point that made Holder question his ability to protect the ones he loves. We get to experience the loss of Les, Holder's sister, and everything that happens afterwards. When preparing for Les's funeral, Holder comes across a blank leather-bound journal in her closet. Thus begins the Letters to Les.
Les,
You left your jeans in the middle of your bedroom floor. It looks like you just stepped out of them. It's weird. Why would you leave your jeans on the floor if you knew what you were about to do?
Through Holder's letters to his sister, we discover that Holder is angry at his sister, because he doesn't understand why she would kill herself and he feels that he failed as a brother. He also tells his sister about things that are going on with his life, now that she isn't there to be apart of it.
Les,
Well, congratulations. you're pretty popular. Not only did you fill the parking lot of the funeral home with cars, but you also filled the lot next door and both churches down the street. That's a lot of cars.
Les,
Happy two-week deathiversary. Harsh? Maybe so, but I'm not apologizing.
I absolutely loved the letters that Holder wrote to his sister. It was an interesting way for Holder to deal with his grief as well as talk to his sister still. Those letters also came in handy when Sky came into his life and he didn't know what to do with the discovery of her not being who she thought she was and being everything he's always been looking for.
My heart stops.
Time stops.
The whole world stops.
I recognize those eyes.
Those are Hope's eyes.
It's her nose, her mouth, her lips, her hair. Everything about this girl is Hope.
As most of you guys know, Hopeless has ONE OF THE BEST (not really a) first kiss scenes ever. Rereading that scene through Holder's eyes made it even BETTER.
I have to stop for a moment because if I don't, I'll for sure break my one and only rule tonight-which is absolutely no mouth contact. I know if I kiss her right now it'll be great. But Id on't want her to have great. I want her to have incredible. Looking at her lips right now, I know for a fact it'll be incredible for me.
"They're so perfect," I say. "Like hearts. I could literally stare at your lips for days and never get bored."
She opens her eyes and smiles. "No. Don't do that. If all you do is stare, then I'll be the bored one."
Reading the scene when Sky discovers that she's Hope and the events that happen afterwards are just as heartbreaking as the first time I read them. But Sky and Holder were there for each other when facing her father and discovering things that Holder didn't expect and that Sky had blocked from her subconscious.
"I love you, Holder. So much," she says firmly. "And just so you know... so did Hope."
The supporting characters in this book were amazing. We have Holder's best friend, Daniel, who I don't think we met in Hopeless. Then of course there is Breckin, Sky's most awesome Mormon best friend ever!
Between Holder and Sky's best friends, we got a little bit of humor and it was a nice thing to have in such an intense story.
We got to see Breckin stand up to Holden after the bracelet scene and tell it like it is. Being a Mormon and all, he wasn't afraid to stand up to someone who, according to rumor, beat up another Mormon the year before.
This book was amazing and like I said before like reading a whole new book, not just another point of view. Because in the end we have a better understanding of everything that happened. At the end of it all, Holden is able to forgive himself and realize he is not the one responsible for Hope disappearing and for Les's death.
If you haven't read Hopeless yet, no worries, this book could be read as a standalone or even before Hopeless. Although I do suggest you read Hopeless because it's just as amazing as Losing Hope.