Reviewed by Hillary on
OMG Y'ALL THIS BOOK HAS STOLEN MY HEART! I LOVED this book. It was so real and raw and painful to read. I could empathize with what she said so much. The going underneath with food and books. I could never really articulate what exactly happens with when I binge or get lost for days in books, but yes, I can now say it is a means of escape. This is a cold, cruel world, and at times I just can't handle it, so I bury myself in books, or I will binge ( I have never purged though that how I got to 315 pounds) and i will feel better for a time. While I was reading, I was going "you too??? I thought I was the only one!"
This was an emotionally hard book for me to read. It is not that long, but I could feel her pain mingling with mine, and I had to take frequent breaks to regroup. I have always felt that more woman needed to talk about the messy part of becoming who you are or rather the unbecoming. So many of us are interacting with our representative, and almost no one is showing us how to be strong and vulnerable.
I too communicated through my "representative" for years. People knew me as the it girl who had it all. A hot boyfriend I was the vice president of an exclusive sorority and was even in the honors program but underneath I was an insecure little bitch. So much of what I did was driven by insecurity I hurt people I genuinely loved. It wasn't until I was diagnosed with Bipolar that I began the decade-long healing journey and to unpack who I was. I still have my bad days but now I am confident in who I am, and I can genuinely love people and to relate to them with my real self.
This book will break you. It is a no holds re-telling of a background rife with people trying to live by societies rules. I especially liked how she came to know God. How she came to know true peace and redemption and to know that at the end for all of us there lies Grace and Mercy and Salvation. The way she describes God is the way that I experienced God. I too get mad and frustrated by people who try and pigeonhole God into a neat, tidy box with a million lists of rules and to make all of us fit inside. God came to save us from that, and ugh nothing makes my blood boil faster than fundamentalist Christians.
I have been pushing this book on everyone that I know. I want EVERYONE in the whole wide world to read this. Especially in these times when it seems that everyone is at everyone else's throat for one reason or another. We need to come together and let love rule and maybe just maybe we can begin to heal.This review was originally posted on Adventures in Never Never Land
Reading updates
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- 17 November, 2016: Finished reading
- 22 November, 2016: Reviewed
- Started reading
- 22 November, 2016: Finished reading
- 22 November, 2016: Reviewed