Reviewed by Joni Reads on

5 of 5 stars

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TRIGGER WARNING: This book and also this review will include mentions of suicide and domestic violence.

Than you to Edelweiss Plus for a free copy of this book in exchange for an honest review.

This was such a heavy read. I read the entire book during a 5 hour shift at work. I can typically keep a strong grip on my emotions while reading but if you cannot then I suggest not reading this book in public.

This book was a 5 star read. Hands down. It is so emotional that I had to put the book down and walk away a few times.

The main character is a 17 year old girl named Ellie. At the very beginning of the book she has just committed suicide. You are thrown in to the story of her life and her world. She walks into the kitchen thinking it is just any other day and sees that her mother is crying in the kitchen and holding on to Ellie's stuffed animal. She thinks it's odd but keeps her mouth shut. Her father enters the scene and is trying to calm her mother down. Ellie is narrating and right away you know something isn't right because Ellie is clearly scared of how her father will react to her mother's crying. When her mother starts to sob harder Ellie's father grabs her mother around the neck and forces her to stop crying. It's clear this is a common occurrence.

Ellie then goes to school and it's there that she hears the teacher announce to the class that she committed suicide.

The rest of the book is her relieving memories from her life to try to piece together why she made the choice she made.

The book handles a very tough subject is such an amazing and meaningful way.

If you think that you can handle the different subjects tackled in this book then I highly suggest that you read it. It's one of those books that will stay with you for a long time.

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