Play It Again (Carina Choice)

by Aidan Wayne

Sean Crisden (Narrator)

• ISBN10: 1982642386
• ISBN13: 9781982642389
• Publish Date: 22 April 2019
• Publish Status: Temporarily Withdrawn
• Publisher: Harlequin Enterprises Ltd
• Imprint: Harlequin Audio
• Format: Audiobook (CD)
• Duration: 6 hours and 32 minutes
• Language: English

Reviews

[bookperson]

fuck.
January 3rd and I read one of my favorites of the year already. wow.

ok, now about the book. this hit so hard on so many levels.
our main character is Dovid - youtuber, who films vlogs, food reviews and recipes. also he's blind. he lives with his sister Rachel, who's also his business partner, video editor and co-creator.
second main character - Sam - started his gaming channel. he's playing one game that Rachel intrested in and that's how she finds him, and Dovid finds Sam through that. Dovid gives Sam shout out on his channel and suddenly Sam becomes popular. they starting dm and... the rest you'll have to find out for yourself.
Also this book is epistolary romance, meaning written through texts, dms, phone calls etc. And slow burn.

one thing I want to say if you loved Casey McQuinston's 'Red, White and Royal Blue' you'll probably like this one!

this book is YA with some very good rep of disability and different queer identities. I almost cried how accurate the rep was for me.

I love, love, love this book! If you can read it via audiobook, that way you can get better experience.

[llamareads]

Content warnings: verbally (possibly physically) abusive parents (not on page), negative self talk

What an utterly adorable book! It’s mushy and sweet, both low heat and low angst, and it’s nice and short.

Dovid is a minor Youtube celebrity. As a blind man, he documents the lives of himself and, to a lesser degree, his twin sister Rachel, as well as restaurant reviews (which includes accessibility as well as the usual decor and food points). When his gamer sister introduces him to an Irishman’s video game play through channel, he’s absolutely entranced by Sam’s voice and quirkiness. When he recommends Sam’s channel to his legion of followers, he doesn’t initially realize what a headache he might be creating for introverted Sam – though it does provide an opportunity for him to reach out to the guy who he’s slowly developing a crush on. Discussions of video monetization and Patreon tiers slowly morph into a friendship, though each is left wanting more. Will a long distance relationship be enough for either of the men?

“He was terribly unexciting. He worked in IT. He liked quiet, and tea, and video games, and reading.”

Dovid’s (pronounced “duh”-vid) is the kind of guy to make a lot of blind jokes about himself, and while, to some extent, he makes his living off his disability, he’s not defined by it. As you might expect from a Youtube celebrity, he’s quite extroverted, and while he’s solicitous of other’s feelings – Sam’s especially – he also tends to act impulsively, as when he gushes over Sam’s channel without thinking about the tsunami of viewers he’s sending his way. After the fact, though, he worries about the consequences, and while he makes that sort of mistake more than once, by the end of the book he did seem to think more about how his actions would effect Sam before he acts. Dovid and Rachel are also Jewish, though if you’re averse to religion, it’s mostly an offhand reference to Hanukkah and a discussion about visiting the Holocaust Memorial and a concentration camp survivor relative. Sam’s, well, adorable (yes, that’s a joke from the book). He’s the kind of guy who practices saying Dovid’s name a million times before recording to make sure he’s saying it right. When Dovid and Sam’s DM conversations turn into Sam recommending books to Dovid, and he realizes Dovid’s actually reading them, he starts making sure that all the books he’s reading have audiobook versions. He’s very introverted, content to come home from his day job in IT, drink tea, read books, and record his weekly video. He has a lot of social anxiety and not much in the way of self esteem (thanks to his parents), and he can’t quite believe anyone actually wants to pay to watch him play video games, let alone pay him for them. So it’s perhaps because the two are complete opposites that the two of them are immediately fascinated by each other.

“All the more reason to contact him,” he said after thinking about it. “If nothing else I can offer some advice in dealing with the increase in subscribers.”
“Yeah, not a bad idea at all. Even if it’s just an excuse for you to finally work up the guts to talk to him.”

The fascination quickly turns into crushes on both sides, but it takes a while for either man to admit to it. As you’d expect from a relationship that’s initially only over Twitter DMs, it takes a while before their relationship morphs from a friendship to a romantic relationship. Sam’s introversion hadn’t given him much experience in that area, and Dovid is more than willing to let Sam set the pace of the relationship – with an aroace sister, he’s a bit more versed than most on sexuality. It’s all quite sweet, honestly, especially that the “big deal” is them both finally saying “I love you” to each other. There’s no sexual content beyond a lot of kisses and some making out. It’s, at most, a mild spoiler then to say that, through talking about their relationship with Dovid, Sam realizes he’s asexual.

As mentioned before, Sam has low self esteem and considers himself a complete and utter disappointment. At the beginning of the book, he has a LOT of negative self-talk, and it’s particular insidious as he doesn’t seem to realize how negative he is towards himself. He’s constantly willing to make allowances for others that he won’t make for himself – it’s OK that that customer yelled at him, she was probably having a good day and is normally a great person and it probably made her feel a lot better to yell at him, and he’s such a waste of time anyway it’s probably just all fine. He’s got the whole “stiff upper lip” thing going on to a ridiculous degree. I personally liked how Dovid handled it – initially gently disagreeing with Sam’s assessment of himself, and then more strongly as their relationship develops and the source of Sam’s issues becomes more apparent. Their relationship helps Sam accept that his parents’ disappointment doesn’t outweigh his own happiness – after all, if a great guy like Dovid loves him and thinks he’s worthy, doesn’t that have some merit?

As for cons, to be completely honest, I’m not a big Youtube watcher, and while I found some parts of their careers interesting – including just how much time goes into editing those videos – there was just too much of it. There’s a lot about the mechanics of Youtube and being an internet celebrity – the nuts and bolts of locking Twitter and monetizing your videos, etc. I don’t mind so much when it’s fleshing out each individual character and how they feel about it, but when a lot of the on-page conversations between the two characters was about Ko-Fi and “per view” vs “per click” monetization – I’m out. So while I appreciated some of it – like Rachel and Dovid explaining how to do unboxing videos if Sam doesn’t want to show his whole body in them – other things, like Patreon tier options, felt like it was taking time away from exploring their relationship. It also felt like something that would really date the book in a few years (or less!).

Overall, this is a solid 3.5 for me, rounded up to 4 for the absolute adorableness. If you’re looking for something quick and mushy, and don’t mind a lot of Youtube shoptalk, this will definitely fit the bill.

I received this book for free from NetGalley in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review.