Being a Christian and living with a mental illness is a confusing, frustrating, and emotionally draining daily journey that asks the question; why me Lord? When the demons have a stronghold on your life, God can seem so far away. The author, Paul Gaumer, lives with these challenges each day and brings an insight on how he continues to focus on God while living with the daily struggles of Bipolar Disorder. Paul lives in Canton, Illinois; 40 miles southwest of Peoria. Paul has been married to his wife, Jeanine, for 33 years and has 3 amazing children and 7 beautiful grandchildren.