For approximately the first four decades of my life, I handled discontent in the manner most people consider "normal". Specifically, I taught myself early on that blaming and condemning was the way to preserve my innocence and avoid the threat of punishment, sickness and death. I made my personality, my body, other people, places, things and circumstances responsible for my unhappy feelings, and I projected guilty feelings by blaming and condemning each of them accordingly. My roles as mother to three children, wife and business partner triggered so many unhappy feelings and guilty projections that I no longer felt like the joyful, carefree person I thought I was. Instead, I felt confused, desperate, depressed and sick. In 2009, it occurred to me that "there must be a better way", and my mind was instantly set on finding that way. I launched a website called The Way to The Way, and started sharing my discoveries. I spent approximately five years researching, writing, crying, praying, practicing yoga, meditating and experimenting with many different healing methods, until I had a major breakthrough in the summer of 2014. Instantly, the underlying cause of feeling unhappy was revealed, along with understanding how to resolve what causes unhappy feelings to crop up. I suddenly understood what Jesus meant when he said "You have dominion over the world", and I was eager to apply that understanding to my worldly perceptions. Over time, all of my triggers arose in their full intensity, only to be resolved through the application of reason. For every trigger that was resolved, I could feel my childlike sense of wonder and joy returning, and I perceived my personal relationships healing and blossoming. In 2018, when the Kilauea lava flow apparently wiped out my family home, gardens and business facility - all of which were uninsured - I realized that I had attained the quality of happiness that could not be shaken by worldly circumstances. To this day, I continue to use the sense of unhappiness for healing its cause, which makes me happy, and the world reciprocates my happiness with kindness, gentleness and gratitude.
